We were feeling pretty good that we were following suit and fitting in culturally.
That is until performance day.
The girls did not have the same outfit.
They all wore cute little head scarves and flowy long dresses or a skirt with the woolly vest.
I'll be honest, I cried!
I was upset that our attempts to fit in kind of backfired on us. How could we have known that the girls wear a completely different outfit as Spanish shepherds?!
As kids walked into class and parents made their way around the building to the gym, I turned my back and cried. Yes, I did! I kept thinking about how it must be effecting Karis. She even said walking in that we bought her the wrong thing...a boy costume!
I gained a bit of composure wishing for my big sunglasses on that cloudy day so I could cover up my blotchy red face! Ugh! I continued to be a bit teary waiting for them to get started and parents are crowding in, wondering if my face shows the signs of my little emotional breakdown. Jerry told a few parent friends of our mishap and they told us "no pasa nada!" (no big deal). I appreciate that, but I still felt like the foreigner who didn't do it right!
I tried to gain composure and was somewhat successful until the kids start coming in and I got all teary again.
It's a being proud thing, I guess. Seeing them walk in, looking for us and then waving big when they see us and then singing so big up in front of everyone.
Once I saw Karis' teacher I felt a bit better. She had the boy costume on and I hoped it made Karis feel better. Not sure that it did, but she didn't show one way or another during her performance.
Seems kind of silly now to be so upset, but I guess it was just the straw that broke the camels back, so to say.
Here are a few pictures and a video. The video gets a bit long, but you can skip around and watch pieces of it if you like.
The parents waiting. The blue signs say "Merry Christmas" (in English) and Feliz Año (that's how they say "Happy New Year." They shorten it, leaving out "new" and it translates "Happy Year."
Karis
I HATE when I do things like that with my kids and believe me I have before! It is so heartbreaking, however your kids looked adorable and you can barely tell the difference. Hmmm I am not sure how you were to know that though...
ReplyDeleteAwww! I'm sorry Tina! You tried so hard! I'm sorry you got the wrong costumes. So happy Karis's teacher had on the "boy" costume, too! You're kids look super cute!!
ReplyDeleteIt looks like a sweet performance. Hopefully, your Karis will only remember the fun!
ReplyDeleteI have been there many times. I think we, as moms, want to make sure that our kids are not missing out just because they're growing up internationally.
ReplyDeleteDon't worry. They will grow up just fine and they will remember only the good from that play.
I wish I had some great wisdom or words of encouragement, but I don't. :-( However, I know that your kids know that you love them and one day will know that you always did the best you could for them. That's what's important. :-) They're super cute, though, even if they're dressed in the boys' costumes!
ReplyDeleteSo many times as missionaries we feel as though our families don't fit in. I wanted you to know that I feel for you, and this post really struck a chord with me. How can it be that we are called and sometimes it seems our kids are the ones who really feel the sharp edge of our decisions? Anyway, I just wanted to let you know you are not alone. While my children are grown I still face the fact that they are very impacted by our decision to serve. My prayer is always that the sacrifices they made and those they saw us make will impact them in ways that make them ready to serve others and to be obedient to Christ.
ReplyDeleteI pray for you today that God will give you a special sense of His peace and that His love will settle your heart in the most uncomfortable of circumstances! What you are doing is such a sacrifice of praise to Him!
hugs from Poland,
Rhonda